Well am finally starting to lose again, down a couple pounds this week.  I just really have to remind myself that I do not need to, and should not be, snacking.  I really get myself in trouble doing this and should only eat a healthy snack if I am REALLY hungry.  I get in the habit and find myself grazing.  I really am not usually hungry between meals so it is just a habit I have reverted to.  So, every day, I am going to remind myself that I really do not need them.  Dr. May said something in her book, and I can't remember the exact wording, that you should not eat to avoid future hunger, you only eat when you actually are hungry. A guideline I am going to try harder to follow!

Well, here is a warning for us all.  The last few months I have been using an exercise ball instead of a chair at my desk at work.  Without warning it burst last week, unceremoniously dumping me on the floor, ouch.  Having had a sore tailbone for the past 2 years, since I lost weight and a lot of padding on my bum, my tailbone bore the brunt of the landing and is quite painful.  Anyway, my advice, as tempting as it sounds to bounce to the music at work, don't use a ball for a chair!  New subject - I gave myself permission to enjoy copious dessert on Mother's day and as firm as I was that I would not feel guilty about it, I am starting to feel guilty.  Probably the bloat that I am experiencing as a result.  I have to remember my new mission in my process of weight loss is to eliminate the self hate, guilt cycle.  I feel once I get that under control things will go much smoothly.  The self hate talk is so much more powerful than the "hey, you've lost a ton of weight and kept it off" talk.  I'm working on it though and getting better all the time! 

Woo hoo going camping this weekend for the first time this year.  Can't wait to get out on my 4 wheeler and take in the beauty of the woods.  Even though our leaves are not out yet I love this time of year - I can see forever out there without the brush blocking the view.  Well I love every time of year in the woods, each season has it's own beauty.  Summer is my best time of year for weight loss.  My sister and I pronounce our campground to be a sugar free zone and call some of our weekends (and weeks) spa weeks.  If you can call swimming in a cold weedy lake a spa treatment!  But we do and we love it.  So, here's to summer and now being able to......kayak, get in and out of a boat, run up the hill, fit in all the chairs, easily go to the bathroom in my camper (oh yeah, that WAS a problem!) and all the many wonderful things I can now do that I wasn't able to 3 summers ago!  Yay LIFE!! (oh, oh, too much caffiene this morning!)